confessions
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so unsexy

imgoindeeperunderground
oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
one small sideways look and i feel so ungood
somewhere along the way i think i gave you the power to make
me feel the way i thought only my father could

oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
one forgotten birthday i’m all but cooked
how these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
i’m 13 again am i 13 for good?

i can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
so unloved and for someone so fine
i can feel so boring for someone so interesting
so ignorant for someone of sound mind

oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
one forgotten phone call and i’m deflated
oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
your hand pulling away and i’m devastated

when will you stop leaving baby?
when will i stop deserting baby?
when will i start staying with myself?

oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
i jump my ship as i take it personally
oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
the moment i decide not to abandon me

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

precious illusions

imgoindeeperunderground
you’ll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did..
i’ll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in

you’ll complete me right? then my life can finally begin
i’ll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem i am?

but this won’t work now the way it once did
and i won’t keep it up even though i would love to
once i know who i’m not then i’ll know who i am
but i know i won’t keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when i was defenseless
and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

this ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor
this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water

but this won’t work as well as the way it once did
cuz i want to decide between survival and bliss
and though i know who i’m not i still don’t know who i am
but i know i won’t keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when i was a kid
and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

i’ve spent so long firmly looking outside me
i’ve spent so much time living in survival mode

but this won’t work as well as the way it once did
cuz i want to decide between survival and bliss
and though i know who i’m not i still don’t know who i am
but i know i won’t keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when i was defenseless
and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when i was a kid
and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

narcissus

imgoindeeperunderground
dear momma’s boy i know you’ve had your butt licked by your mother
i know you’ve enjoyed all that attention from her
and every woman graced with your presence after
dear narcissus boy i know you’ve never really apologized for anything
i know you’ve never really taken responsibility
i know you’ve never really listened to a woman

dear me-show boy i know you’re not really into conflict resolution
or seeing both sides of every equation
or having an uninterrupted conversation

and any talk of healthiness
and any talk of connectedness
and any talk of resolving this
leaves you running for the door

(why why do i try to love you
try to love you when you really don’t want me
to)

dear egotist boy you’ve never really had to suffer any consequence
you’ve never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes
you’d never understand anyone showing resistance
dear popular boy i know you’re used to getting everything so easily
a stranger to the concept of reciprocity
people honor boys like you in this society

and any talk of selflessness
and any talk of working at this
and any talk of being of service
leaves you running for the door

(why why do i try to help you try to help you
when you really don’t want me to)

you go back to the women who will dance the dance
you go back to your friends who will lick your ass
you go back to ignoring all the rest of us
you go back to the center of your universe

dear self centered boy i don’t know why i still feel affected by you
i’ve never lasted very long with someone like you
i never did although i have to admit i wanted to
dear magnetic boy you’ve never been with anyone who doesn’t take your shit
you’ve never been with anyone who’s dared to call you on it
i wonder how you’d be if someone were to call you on it

and any talk of willingness
and any talk of both feet in
and any talk of commitment
leaves you running for the door

(why why do i try to change you try to
try to change you when you really don’t
want me to)

you go back to the women who will dance the dance
you go back to your friends who will lick your ass
you go back to being so oblivious
you go back to the center of the universe

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

hands clean

imgoindeeperunderground
if it weren’t for your maturity none of this would have happened
if you weren’t so wise beyond your years i would’ve been able to control myself
if it weren’t for my attention you wouldn’t have been successful and
if it weren’t for me you would never have amounted to very much

ooh this could be messy
but you don’t seem to mind
ooh don’t go telling everybody
and overlook this supposed crime

we’ll fast forward to a few years later
and no one knows except the both of us
and i have honored your request for silence
and you’ve washed your hands clean of this

you’re essentially an employee and i like you having to depend on me
you’re kind of my protege and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me
i know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
i know you sexualize me like a young thing would and i think i like it

ooh this could get messy
but you don’t seem to mind
ooh don’t go telling everybody
and overlook this supposed crime

we’ll fast forward to a few years later
and no one knows except the both of us
and i have honored your request for silence
and you’ve washed your hands clean of this

what part of our history’s reinvented and under rug swept?
what part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
what with this distance it seems so obvious?

just make sure you don’t tell on me especially to members of your family
we best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
i wish i could tell the world cuz you’re such a pretty thing when you’re done up properly
i might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

ooh this could be messy and
ooh i don’t seem to mind
ooh don’t go telling everybody
and overlook this supposed crime

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

flinch

imgoindeeperunderground
what’s it been over a decade?
it still smarts like it was four minutes ago
we only influenced each other totally
we only bruised each other even more so

what are you my blood? you touch me like you are my blood
what are you my dad? you affect me like you are my dad

how long can a girl be shackled to you
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
how long can a girl stay haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

where’ve you been? i heard you moved to my city
my brother saw you somewhere downtown
i’d be paralyzed if i ran into you
my tongue would seize up if we were to meet again

what are you my god? you touch me like you are my god
what are you my twin? you affect me like you are my twin

how long can a girl be tortured by you?
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
and how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

so here i am one room away from where i know you’re standing
a well-intentioned man told me you just walked in
this man knows not of how this information has affected me
but he knows the colour of the car i just drove away in

what are you my kin? you touch me like you are my kin
what are you my air? you affect me like you are my air

how long can a girl be tortured by you?
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
and how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

a man

imgoindeeperunderground
i am a man as a man i’ve been told
bacon is brought to the house in this mold
born of your bellies i yearn for the cord
years i have groveled repentance ignored

and i have been blamed
and i have repented
i’m working my way toward our union mended

i am man who has grown from a son
been crucified by enraged women
i am son who was raised by such men
i’m often reminded of the fools i’m among

and i have been shamed
and i have relented
i’m working my way toward our union mended
and i have been shamed
and i have repented
i’m working my way toward our union mended

we don’t fare well with endless reprimands
we don’t do well with a life served as a sentence
this won’t work well if you’re hell bent on your offence
i am a man who understands your resistance

i am a man who still does what he can
to dispel our archaic reputation
i am a man who has heard all he can
cuz i don’t fare well with endless punishment

cuz i have been blamed and i have repented
i’m working my way toward our union mended
and we have been blamed and we have repented
i’m working my way toward our union mended

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

21 things i want in a lover

imgoindeeperunderground
do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
do you have a big intellectual capacity but know
that it alone does not equate wisdom?
do you see everything as an illusion?
but enjoy it even though you are not of it?
are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware?
and don’t believe in capital punishment?

these are 21 things that i want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that i prefer

do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
loving someone can actually feel like freedom? are you funny?
¨¤ la self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed opinions?

these are 21 things that i want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that i prefer
i figure i can describe it since i have a choice in the matter
these are 21 things i choose to choose in a lover

i’m in no hurry i could wait forever
i’m in no rush cuz i like being solo
there are no worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
i’ll live like there’s no tomorrow

are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
up for being experimental? are you athletic?
are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted? ...curious and communicative...

(bkz: alanis morissette)
(bkz: Under Rug Swept)

you learn

imgoindeeperunderground
i recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone, yeah
i recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah

swallow it down ( what a jagged little pill )
it feels so good ( swimming in your stomach )
wait until the dust settles

you live you learn
you love you learn
you cry you learn
you lose you learn
you bleed you learn
you scream you learn

i recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
i certainly do
i recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
feel free

throw it down ( the caution blocks you from the wind )
hold it up ( to the rays )
you wait and see when the smoke clear

you live you learn
you love you learn
you cry you learn
you lose you learn
you bleed you learn
you scream you learn

wear it out ( the way a threeyearold would do )
melt it down ( you`re gonna have to eventually anyway )
the fire trucks are coming up around the bend

you live you learn
you love you learn
you cry you learn
you lose you learn
you bleed you learn
you scream you learn

you grieve you learn
you choke you learn
you laugh you learn
you choose you learn
you pray you learn
you ask you learn
you live you learn

(bkz: alanis morissette)
(bkz: mtv unplugged)

these are the thoughts

imgoindeeperunderground
these are the thoughts that go through my head
in my backyard on a sunday afternoon
when i have the house to myself and i am not
expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend

is he the one that i will marry?
and why`s it so hard to be objective about myself
why do i feel cellularly alone?
am i supposed to live in this crazy city
can blindly continued fear induce regurgitated life-denying
tradition be overcome

where does the money go that i send to those in need
if we have so much why do some people have nothing
still why do i feel frantic when i first wake up in the morning
why do you say you are spiritual
yet you treat people like shit

how can you say you`re close to god
and yet you talk behind my back as though i`m not
a part of you why do you say you`re fine when it`s
obvious you are not, why`s it so hard to tell you what i want
why can`t you just read my mind

why do i fear that the quieter i am the less you will listen
why do i care whether you like me or not
why`s it so hard for me to be angry
why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck
and not the other way around

will i ever move back to canada again?
i`d be with a lover with whom i am a student
and oh master why am i encouraged to shut my mouth
when it gets too close to home why cannot i live in the moment?

(bkz: alanis morissette)
(bkz: mtv unplugged)

princes familiar

imgoindeeperunderground
please be philosophical
please be tapped into your feminity
please be able to take the wheel from me
please be crazy and curious
papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar
papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar
please be a sexaholic
please be unpredictably miserable
please be self absorbed much (not the good kind)
please be addicted to some substance

papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar
papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar
please be the jerk of my knee i`ve fit you always
you finish my sentences i think i love you
what is your name again no matter i`m guessing your thoughts again
correctly and i love the way
you press my buttons so much sometimes i could strangle you

papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar
papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar

please be strangely enigmatic
please be just like my

(bkz: alanis morissette)
(bkz: mtv unplugged)

no pressure over cappuccino

imgoindeeperunderground
and you`re like a 90`s jesus
and you revel in your psychosis
how dare you?
you sample concepts like hors d`heurves
and you eat their questions for dessert
and is it just me or is it hot in here?

and you`re like a 90`s kennedy
and you`re only a million years old.
you can`t fool me.

they`ll throw opinions like rocks in riots
and they`ll stumble around like hypocrites
and is it just me or is it dark in here?

you may never be or have a husband
you may never be or have a child
you will learn to loose everything
we are temporary arrangements

and you`re like a 90`s noah
and they laughed at you when you packed all of your things
and they wonder why you`re frustrated
and they wonder why you`re so angry
is it just me or are you set up

and god bless you in your travels, in your conquests, and queries

(bkz: mtv unplugged)
(bkz: alanis morissette)

head over feet

imgoindeeperunderground
en sevilen sarkilardan biridir.

i had no choice but to hear you
you stated your case time and again
i thought about it

you treat me like i`m a princess
i`m not used to liking that
you ask how my day was

you`ve already won me over in spite of me
don`t be alarmed if i fall head over feet
and don`t be surprised if i love you for all that you are
i couldn`t help it
it`s all your faults

your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
you`re so much braver than i gave you credit for
that`s not lip service

you`ve already won me over in spite of me
and don`t be alarmed if i fall head over feet
and don`t be surprised if i love you for all that you are
i couldn`t help it
it`s all your faults

you are the bearer of unconditional things
you held your breath and the door for me
thanks for your patience

you`re the best listener that i`ve ever met
you`re my best friend
best friend with benefits
what took me so long

i`ve never felt this healthy before
i`ve never wanted something rational
i am aware now, i am aware now

you`ve already won me over in spite of me
and don`t be alarmed if i fall head over feet
and don`t be surprised if i love you for all that you are
i couldn`t help it
it`s all your faults

you`ve already won me over in spite of me
and don`t be alarmed if i fall head over feet
and don`t be surprised if i love you for all that you are
i couldn`t help it
it`s all your faults

(bkz: alanis morissette)
(bkz: mtv unplugged)
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