flinch

what’s it been over a decade?
it still smarts like it was four minutes ago
we only influenced each other totally
we only bruised each other even more so

what are you my blood? you touch me like you are my blood
what are you my dad? you affect me like you are my dad

how long can a girl be shackled to you
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
how long can a girl stay haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

where’ve you been? i heard you moved to my city
my brother saw you somewhere downtown
i’d be paralyzed if i ran into you
my tongue would seize up if we were to meet again

what are you my god? you touch me like you are my god
what are you my twin? you affect me like you are my twin

how long can a girl be tortured by you?
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
and how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

so here i am one room away from where i know you’re standing
a well-intentioned man told me you just walked in
this man knows not of how this information has affected me
but he knows the colour of the car i just drove away in

what are you my kin? you touch me like you are my kin
what are you my air? you affect me like you are my air

how long can a girl be tortured by you?
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
and how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name
soon i’ll grow up and i won’t even flinch at your name

(bkz: under rug swept)
(bkz: alanis morissette)