your congratulations

supposed former infatuation junkie albumunden alanis morissette sarkisi.

i wouldn`t have compromised as much.
so much of myself for fear of having you hating me.
i would`ve sung so loudly,
it would`ve cracked myself.

i became so selfconscious of anything exuberant.
i wouldn`t have sold myself short.
i wouldn`t have kept my eyes glued to the ground.

if i had`ve known my invisibility would not make a difference,
i would`ve run around screaming proudly at the top of my voice.
i wouldn`t have said it was in fact luck,
i`m talking idealism here.

i would not have been so selfdeprecating,
i wouldn`t have cowered for fear of having my eyes scratched out.
i wouldn`t have cut my comfort off.
i wouldn`t have feigned needlessness.
i would not have discredited every one of their compliments.

it was your approval i wanted.
your congratulations.