terror

cok gaz bir my ruin parcasidir.
sozleri ise

this is what you call me
i strike terror among men i can’t be bothered with what i think i bare my cross, my soul, myself i forgive
but i never forget
i’ve been put upon this earth in female form but i can’t handle myself with the best of you
as well as the worst and i often have i have the right to remain silent but i choose to speak, sing scream i am lips, hips, tits
i am the power of a woman strong like music true like friendship but without my friends
there would be no music
only spoken word fucker!
i am able to change so i live without regret, without remorse only a remix
i am drunk, i am sober
heaven doesn’t want me and hells affraid i’ll take over.
don’t bother trying to censor me, or shut me up because it won’t work. i am cold and distant yet worm and
close to those who deserve to see that side of me part of me
the heart of me. you find me so hard to understand in your world, the world you percieve to be so normal i am deformed
scorned, reborn i am me and
i know exactly who i am,
what i am and the wrath i bring the ugly beauty, the lying truth, the virgin whore
the quiet storma lover, a fighter,
a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school
a beginer. i have decorated
my self with love, hate, truth you
all of you, both of you, none of you
more than one of you with lips like sugar,
eyes like meat. i’ve watched men come
go and cheat i sleep to
dream and dream of sleep.
i had a dream joe that you were standing
in the middle of an open road.
i had a dream joe
that your hands were raised up to the sky
and your mouth was covered in foam.
i’ve been crucified,
justified and mortified by my behaviour
both feminine and masculine.
i am contradiction and a juxtapostion. my
relief is my release and
only time will tell all is well that ends well.
i am unsweetened, unclean
being called drama queen
ex-girlfriend, ex-member
the tantrum, the temper i paint my finger
take the blame and this time
i will own the name
because nobody is going to ruin me
if i have to i will ruin
my self
and it will be
my ruin
fucker!